Bling Bling

Here I sit, among a pile of beads & jewelry-making tools and yet, I have opted to blog my latest random thoughts instead! Ugh. I haven't made any jewelry in I-can't-remember-how-long, but I have been trying to get inspired to do it again to see if it is something I might want to turn into a career. For years, I have simply made necklaces, bracelets and earrings (aka "jewelry", duh) for family gifts, but the compliments I have received on the pieces I've made have made me wonder. BUT, as always, I am the one standing in my own way. "Am I good enough?" "The stuff I make isn't as pretty as what others have made" and so on. Why do I do this to myself? This is the same attitude that has prevented me from pursuing my dreams over the years. I haven't told many people that my dream, when I was younger, was to be a comedienne, specifically, a cast member of "Saturday Night Live" or a similar sketch show. I remember as a kid, probably beginning in 6th grade, I would listen to stand up comedy and the Dr Demento show on the radio in my bed, when I was supposed to be sleeping. Sometimes I would record some of the stand up bits on my cassette tape recorder (by me holding the recorder up against the radio, of course! That is how we all used too make our mix tapes, isn't it?) and memorize them. Or, I would memorize SNL bits and mimic the characters at school on Mondays (anyone who was my friend at RHAM Jr and Senior High might remember my Velvet Jones impression or my Gumby, dammit! :) ) 

Back to the jewelry-making, because that was my original topic, wasn't it? I think I am just going to make a few pieces and see how it goes. Trust my gut and not listen to the voice in my head! Just "woman up" and believe in myself for a change! Yeah, that's it! The first step is to back away from the computer, nice and slow, and tackle these beads! Wish me luck!!